Wednesday, March 21, 2007

Decisions, decisions…

Dear friends,

We got home a little while ago from a concert Jenni was in. It was incredible- orchestra, Littleton Chorale and select groups from 3 high school choirs. The high school choirs also each performed in the first half. Amazing! Jenni ended up getting the highest score possible in her voice competition a few weeks ago, by the way. She wants to try and get a minor in music with her mechanical engineering degree, wherever she ends up going to college. She is hearing back from colleges and will need to make a decision by the end of April. Please pray for her decision.

Jesse is at Sea Base, a Boy Scout camp on an island off the coast of Miami this week. He will get back to Miami on Saturday where Allison will pick him up and take him back to Lakeland for a visit with her at Southeastern University until next Wednesday.

Laura is enjoying Atlanta so far. She is making friends and visited a church called Perimeter and wants to keep going there. A few co-workers might join her next week. She went to Atlanta’s St. Patrick’s Day parade last Saturday with some people from work and had a good time. Mostly she is working hard and getting used to everything.

Greg is working on fixing up our kitchen in between his other work. He was covered with plaster splatter yesterday and had Jenni and me laughing. He and I are scheduled to go to Spokane from Saturday until Wednesday to check out the city and for him to have a second job interview there. Please pray with us for peace and discernment about this for both of us. I am still struggling with the idea of moving at this time.

I am physically not doing well. Tiredness and several other things are going on which could all be stress related, or could be left over from all of the cancer treatments, meds, or from something else. My emotions are also running high. It is hard when people tell me, “to get over it and move on.” I will be honest and tell you that I am worn out and am tired of being in this hard place. I wish I could just, “get over it and move on.” There are lots of reasons that is impossible for me at this point. I will be relieved when we can look back at this time- when it is a memory and not happening now. But I also know that I am in this hard place now, and need to process what the Lord is teaching me about myself, others, and about how to handle in my heart, the recent events that resulted in the closing of the ministry we (and so many others) gave ourselves to for 27 years. I am grateful for the counselor who is helping me through this process.

If you are a pray-er, please pray that I would physically feel better. Pray that I can process what I need to process. Pray that I am not a drag on those around me. Pray that I can know God’s presence and voice when he speaks to me. Pray that Greg and I would be able to discern God’s will for us in next steps and agree on what that is. For several reasons, we (especially Greg) feel that time is running out, and that we need to make a decision soon. Whatever decision we make will have long-term consequences, so a lot is riding on it for us and others. The weight feels great.

I thank you for reading this and for any prayers you offer up for me and for our family. I am amazed and so thankful that there are people who care enough to read these blogs! You are a real blessing to me! God bless you! Nancy


friend said...

Praying for you Nancy!

Beth said...

I hardly know where to start . . . but just wanted you to know you are heavy on my heart and I am praying for you.

I'm so glad to have received your Christmas card this past Christmas, which is how I learned of your blog. Somehow with everything that has been going on I am at a loss for words. I hurt for all of you and the Caleb family. Like everyone else, I don't understand . . . but I do know God does.

Thank you for sharing so candidly. I love and admire you both so much. You continue to be such a shining example of what it means to trust God whole-heartedly and to live your lives fully submitted to Him.

I love so much hearing about your children. Hard to believe they are almost all grown up now. Just the other day I came across a picture of all them with David I one night when we babysat (something like 14 years ago!) They are beautiful—how blessed you are.

I didn't mean for this to turn into a book . . . just wanted you to know I'm praying for you! Love to you all.

Janet Willcox said...

Dear Nancy,

Sean and I are praying for you and Greg. God has you in the palm of his hand. I know you know that. He hasn't forgotten you.

Believe me, I know the judgements you are feeling. Recent judgements from family and friends regarding our daughter...thank you for standing beside her. Judgements regarding how we dealt with the loss of Sean's parents. It can be devastating and so disappointing.

We are right here. I would be happy to talk with you any time. Just call.

We love you.

Sean and Janet Willcox